Although it happened in the summer,
I remember it in the winter.
It was only a brief moment,
But I dread every time I recall it.
Twenty years ago, I enjoyed a life of
freedom. It was summer vacation and I was spending it in my hometown with my
family. I had little to no responsibilities to speak of. I could go to bed
anytime I wanted. Wake up anytime. Pass the time with books and movies. And
sometimes go for a drive to the beach with my friends.
At the time, I was a sophomore in university
and had a bit of breathing room before entering the workforce. Simply put, I
was like the grasshopper in Aesop's fable, time was all mine.
One
hot, stifling night, as usual, I finished dinner that my mother had prepared,
took a bath and went to bed. There was no air conditioner in my room, so I
opened the window but kept the screen closed.
In the middle of the night, I was awakened by
the buzzing sounds of a mosquito. It must have come in from somewhere. I had no
choice but turn on the lights and kill it.
The
dastardly deed done, on my palms was left the squashed body of a mosquito with
a mark of its ill-fated blood. But I was not bitten by it. I wiped it off with
a tissue and tried to go back to sleep.
Maybe it was because I had taken a long nap
in the afternoon, or I drank a little more beer than usual at dinner. Or
perhaps it was a curse of the mosquito. But whatever the reason, I was wakeful
and could not sleep at all.
My T-shirt damp with sweat,
I arose from my bed, changed it, and went to the kitchen. I washed my hands
clean with soap and drank a glass of water.
Beyond the window, frogs were croaking and
stars were shining. I was drawn to the light like a summer bug and wandered
outside.
It was just after 2 in the morning. The
houses were all dark. Only the lights from street lamps were aglow.
There were no convenience stores or even
vending machines in the neighborhood. So, I decided to go to the nearby park
where I used to play as during my childhood. Perhaps I could catch a beetle
there, I thought boyishly as I headed in that direction.
All I could hear was the sound of my sandals,
but then, as I got closer to the park, my ears began to focus on the river.
In front of the park was a narrow road. And
straight down that road was a long red bridge. However, the bridge was built
long ago and had since become faded and covered in rust.
I’ll never forget what happened next.
When I was about to cross the road, I
saw a lady on the bridge. She was in her 30s with long hair and wearing a gray
coat. Although I thought, "What is she doing here at this hour?”, I
realized it was the same for me, and looked away.
But, in the
following moment, I noticed something strange.
A
gray coat? Coat!? It’s summer!!
When I looked again toward the bridge, the
woman was gone.
In the middle of that long bridge, there was
nowhere to hide.
If she had run off somewhere, I would have
noticed.
There were only two possible explanations;
either she had jumped into the river, or it was all a dream.
I knew that neither were correct.
I had seen a ghost!!
I ran for home as fast as my legs could go! I
didn't have the courage to go to the middle of the bridge to find out what might
have truly happened. In my haste, I almost took a tumble on the way when my
sandals fell off my feet.
Finally, I woke
up near noon. I slept better than I expected, and it felt as if everything that
happened in the early morning hours had been a dream. but, when I stood up, I
felt pain in the little toe of my foot. Come to think of it, my sandal had
fallen off as I was in a hurry to go home. I must have gotten a scratch then.
It was not a
dream after all. [?]
I washed my face
in the bathroom, but my melancholy mood did not rinse away. While I was having
brunch in the kitchen, my mother finished hanging the laundry and came in for a
cup of tea.
At that moment, I felt the need for someone to
laugh with me and say, “No way! That’s ridiculous.” So, I told my mother about
what had happened in the middle of the night. But, she suddenly looked
surprised. Then she silently put her tea cup on the table and told me this.
“Last winter a
woman died upstream from that river. They don't know if it was an accident or a
suicide.”
I dropped the toast from my hand.
My whole body shivered with cold.
Was it the
woman I had seen? ......
I thought about going to a library and looking for newspaper articles
about her. However, doing so would change nothing.
Unable to
concentrate on the book or the movie, I went out into the garden in the
evening. There were several sunflowers blooming. I had an idea. I brought
scissors from home and cut the most beautiful sunflower among them. Then I took
it and started walking.
The sky was a sunset, and the bridge was glowing orange. I released the
sunflower from the bridge into the river, and I prayed for her.
Having
graduated from being a grasshopper,
I
have now grown up to be an ant.
Even in the cold winter,
I go out to work.
Sometimes I pass a woman
With
long hair wearing a gray coat.
I turn my head to look at her.
If
she is there,
I am relieved.
But
if she is gone...
A beautiful story written with the memories of childhood. How nostalgic! Looking forward to read more.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment! I also remembered a lot of nostalgic events while writing this story. I will continue to write stories that people will enjoy reading.
DeleteHad I expected what the story would be about, I wouldn't have read it at such a late hour (11:00 p.m)in a dark room and with another layer of darkness under my quilt! The descriptive technique is very effective that it gave me goosebumps while I was experiencing the same "shock".
ReplyDeleteNow, the reason I am writing this comment is that today, after 4 days of reading the story, I had to cross the bridge over Umeda river 梅田川. I was busy following Google maps and did not remember the story until I saw a woman standing on the bridge and looking in silence at the river.and also..wearing a gray coat! Only then, I remembered the woman in the story. But the woman I saw was in her fifties or sixties. If ghosts grow up, the woman in the story would be almost the same age as the one in front of me. I passed her and forced myself to look back and see if she would disappear. I looked back three times and thank God she was still there.
What a surprise that is! You are lucky that the woman did not disappear. A bridge may be the link between this world and the next. No wonder ghosts grow old.
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